Thursday, January 1, 2009

feelings (3)

Hello Friends
Wish you all a very happy new year

So kaise chal rahi hai life? Plz friends main jo bhi likhu agar kisi ki life mein kuchh aisa huya ho jo shayad meri nazar mein galat ho aur aapko wo sahi laga ho to plz mujhe apna dost samjh kar maaf kar dena, coz main kisi ko hurt karne ke liye kuch nahi likhta ye sab mere saath ho chuka hai ya fir hone wala hai or in short feelings jo kisi ki bhi kisi ke liye bhi ho sakti hain.

Aaj main kuchh Sameer ke bare mein btata hu, shayad aap mein se koi samjh jaye use. Sameer- ek aisa insaan jiske paas bahut se dost hokar bhi koi dost nahi hai. Uske liye kisse-kahaniyaan bahut mayene rakhte hain, is liye bachpan se hi wo bas khwabo ki duniya mein hi jeeta aa raha hai aur aaj bhi ye sab isliye likh raha hu kyuki aaj bhi main un khwabo ki duniya se bahar nahi niklana chahta coz is duniya mein jo log rehte hain wo sirf apne bare mein hi sochte hain, nahi jeena chahta main ek tarfa zindagi,maine kabhi kisi ka bura nahi chaha par na jane kyu har baar mere saath bura hi hota hai, kisi se kuchh nahi manga par agar kuch expect kar bhi liya to usme bura hi kya hai, par is duniya ke insaan is baat ko samjhna hi nahi chahte, ye sab sirf mere saath nahi ho raha bahut se aur log bhi hain jinke liye kisi aur ki zindagi khud ki zindagi se jyada mayene rakhti hai, kyu nahi milta unko jise wo pana chahte hain? Kyu nahi milti unhe chhoti chhoti khushiyan? Kya unhe koi haq nahi hai khushiyan pane ka? Mujhe pata hai kyu, kyuki wo jo pana chahte hain wo galat hai, us insaan ki nazar mein jis-se wo expect karta hai, kyu bhul jate hain ke wo khushiyaan pane ke liye nahi balki khushiyaan baatne ke liye aaye hain is duniya mein. Bas un swarthi logo ko dekhkar khud bhi kuchh na kuchh pane ki zidd mein chal padte hain us raah par jis raah se sivaye khalipan ke kuchh nahi milta, Us raah par us insaan ka saath bhi nahi mil pata jise wo pyaar karta hai, kyuki wo hi to uski sabse badi galati hoti hai.

Friends life mein bahut kuch aisa ho gaya jise kabhi expect nahi kiya tha aur waise bhi hota to wahi hai na jo expect na kiya ho, waise bhi mujhe khud nahi pata kyu likh raha hu main ye sab, shayad apne aap ko samjhne ki ya fir samjhane ki koshish kar raha hu, umeed hai koi aur to samjh nahi paya shayad kisi din khud samjh jayu apne aapko.

Bahut baar socha hai ke sochna hi chhod du par kya karu, kabhi bhi khud ko rok nahi saka aisa karne se kyuki maine kaun sa apne bare mein kuchh sochna hota hai, sochna hota hai to hamesha apne friends ke bare mein hi sochna hota hai. Main ye sab isliye nahi likh raha ke ise padh kar shayad mujhe koi dost mil jaye, ya fir koi aisa person jo shayad mujhe samjh sake. Bas kuchh feelings hain jo kisi na kisi aur ke mann bhi hoti hain jise wo us insaan se nahi keh pata jise wo apna sabse achha dost samjhta hai lekin uske dost ke liye wo bas ek dost hai sirf ek dost jo shayad baki dosto jaisa hi hai, jinki uski zindagi mein koi jagah nahi hai, sach kahu to sirf unke liye likh raha hu jo is sameer jaisa hi hai par use koi samjh nahi paya. Aur ab to main khud nahi chahta ke mujhe koi aisa mile jo mujhe bhi samjhe, sahayd ab itni himmat nahi hai ke kisi ko ye ehsaas dilane ki bhi koshish karu ke wo mujhe apna sabse achha dost samjh sakta hai. Really i don’t need ya kahu k i dont want any friend, bas jo hain wo hi kafi hain. Agar dhundne jayu to pata nahi kitne hi sameer mil jayenge par har ek ka dard bhi to nahi baant sakta aur jiska baatna chaha wo khud hi nahi chahta. Kyu hota hai life mein aisa?Kyu banate hain hum kuchh anjaan rishte?

Sameer- sab kehte hain sameer hawa ka wo jhonka hota hai jo kisi na kisi ke liye us waqt aata hai jab use uski sabse jyada jarurat hoti hai, ek tohfa hota hai par kya ye sach hai? sahi hi to hai hawa ka jhonka hi to hota hai jo to aata hai aur ek pal mein hi chala jata hai, pata nahi kitne hi hawa ke jhonke aakar chale jate hain aur jane se pehle sabke ke liye ek message chhod jate hai, bas ye keh kar chala jata haihar jhonka ke jane se pehle kuchh aisa de jayo jise log zindagi bhar yaad kare. Bas main bhi kuchh aisa hi karke jana chahta hu, pata nahi life mein kya likha hai, kya karna hai, kuchh samjh mein nahi aata.

I feel ke hume kuchh aise dost milte hain jinhe hum to kisi ke bhi samne apna dost keh sakta hain,par wo shayad kisi ke samne hume apna dost nahi keh sakte, pata nahi ye unka darr hai ya fir yu kahe ke hum hi unke kabil nahi ke wo log hume apna dost samjh sake. Kitna aasaan hota hai kisi dost ke liye ye kehna ke main tumhe chhodna chahta hu, bina kuch soche samjhe..............., bas keh diya, kya bas kehne se rishte khatam ho jate hain? Par wo ye kyu nahi sochta ke jise wo chhodna chahta hai wo insaan use kitna pyaar karta hai. Kisi ke jane se kisi ki zindagi to nahi rukti par shayad mere jaise kuchh log jo dost ko khud se jyada mante hain unki life mein khalipan jarur aa jata hai.

Waise maine aaj tak kisi ko nahi bataya but mere paas ek aisa dost hai jise main kuchh bhi kahu, kuchh bhi puchhu wo mujhe ans jarur deta hai, Pata hai kaun................. Bhagwan,,,,,, Sabke paas hota hai ye dost par bas sirf use uski galatiyaan hi btate hain kyuki shyad hume is duniya se sikhne ke liye hi bas ye mila hai. Jab bhi kabhi main toot jata hu i alwayz ask him ke aapne mere saath aisa kyu kiya to mujhe mere sawal ka ans jarur milta hai.
Ek din maine puchha ke kyu bheja hai mujhe is duniya mein jaha sab apne bare mein sochte hain, kisi ka kisi se koi wasta nahi? Jaha log hass kar dhokha dete hain or us dhoke ko ek saza kehkar bhul jate hain, Kya wo saza baar baar milni jaruri hai? To bhagwan ne kaha.” Maine to tujhse pehle hi kaha tha ke mat ja par ye teri hi zidd thi ke nahi main jaunga aur sab kuchh badal dunga, sabko pyaar karna sikha dunga, rishton ki paribhasha samjhaunga aur ab kyu ro raha hai. Yahan ke log bas dard dena jante hain dard sehna pade to use kisi ki galati jo wo khud kabhi karte hi nahi. Maine tujhe bheja tha ke tu jaye aur sabko ye bataye ke kisi ko pyaar kaise dena hai, kisi ko vishwaas kaise dena hai aur agar aa hi gaye hain to bas dena hi sikho lena nahi, Par tu bhi yaha pahunch kar badal gaya aur aaj mujhse sawal kar raha hai ke maine tere saath ye sab kyu kiya hai? Tu bhi in logo jaisa ho gaya galati khud karte hain aur naam kis aur ka, Jaise sab dard dete hain waise hi tune bhi mujhe diya. Maine socha tha ke tu mera dost hai aur sab thik kar dega par tu bhi is duniya ka ho gaya, gaya to tu un logo ko sikhane ke liye par aaj mujhe padha raha hai ke maine galat kiya hai sabke saath. Kya maine kabhi kisi ko aise chhoda jiase wo mujhe chhod dete hain. Jab Jarurat padti hai to meri yaad aa jati hai warna khud mein hi khoye rehte hain, kya kabhi kisi ne ye socha ke mujhe mere dosto ki koi parwah nahi, main hamesha unke paas rehta hu par kya kabhi mere liye kisi ne kuchh kiya, jise main keh saku ke ye hai mera dost”. ........................... Ab aap hi socho dosto Main bhagwan ko kya jawab deta unke is sawal ka. Sach hi to kaha unhone mujhse, hum badal hi to gaye hain, Jab dil chaha kisi ko chhod diya aur jab ji chaha apna bana liya. Sachi mein tang aa gaya hu is behaviour se, kabhi kabhi sochta hu chhod du sabko par fir darr rehta hai ek baat ka ke agar aise chhod gaya to fir se ye sun-na padega ke tumne dhoka diya, tum chhod kar gaye the hum nahi, Kyuki kisi ne kisi ko na samjhne ki zidd jo kar rakhi hai aur isi zidd ki wajah se aksar lag chhod dete hain ek aise insaan ko jo shayad........................ I don’t hav words for dat person.

Ek din maine bhagwan se puchha ke har insaan ke paas koi aisa hai jise wo bahut pyaar karta hai par mujhe kyu nahi diya koi aisa to he said ke tujhe pyaar dene ke liye bheja hai pane ke liye nahi, Kabhi agar tu kisi ke bare mein sochega bhi to bhi wo tujhe pyaar nahi karega par haan tujhe ye haq hai ke tu use bina btaye us-se pyaar kar sakta hai par kabhi bhul se bhi use mat btana warna use hamesha ke liye kho bhi sakta hai, kyuki is duniya mein aksar aise hi log milte hain, jinke liye apna pyaar to sab kuchh hai par tere jaise dost ka pyaar samjhne ke liye waqt nahi hai ya fir tera pyaar unke liye bas ek pagalpan hai jo sirf tujhse hi shuru hota hai aur tujhpe hi khatam. Maine puchha ke aakhir kya hai ye pyaar jo log itna bhagte hain iske pichhe he said :-

Pyaar ek ehsaas hai jise kabhi kisi ko samjhaya nahi ja sakta, kisi ko bataya nahi ja sakta, kisi insaan ko kuchh aisa dena jise kabhi usne expect na kiya ho par ye zaruri nahi ke aapko bhi wo mile. Ye kisi bhi rishte ko bandh ke rakhta hai aur rishta agar dosti ka ho to shayad koi koi hi samjh sakta hai is pyaar ko. Agar aap kisi ko mann se pyaar karte hain to ye zaruri nahi ke wo bhi aapse pyaar kare Par iska matlab ye nahi ke aap us insaan se pyaar karna hi chhod do, aap use pyaar karte raho kyuki ho sakta hai ek din wo badle, ho sakta hai use samjh aaye ke wo kya kho raha hai agar kabhi na bhi samjh paya to main ek aise insaan ko jarur bhejunga jo tumhe wo pyaar dega jiska tumhe intzaar hai par isme bahut waqt lag sakta hai. Pyaar sirf dene ke liye hai na ke paane ke liye, aap kabhi kisi galat insaan se pyaar nahi karte aap to hamesha sahi insaan se hi pyaar karte ho par shayad wo insaan hi aapko ya aapke pyaar ko samjh nahi pata ya fir uske paas aapke liye itna waqt hi nahi hai par ek din jarur aata hai jis din use iska ehsaas hota hai lekin sharat hai ke aapka pyaar uske liye sacha hona chahiye.

Na jane kyu hum log bas ek chhota sa ehsaas dene se bhi darte hain..... Pyaar.......kya nahi de sakte hum sabko, agar sabko nahi bhi de sakte to kuchh aise logo ko hi jo hamare bahut kareeb hote hain ya jinke liye hum bahut mayene rakhte hain. Kabhi socha hai ke unki humse kuchh umeeden hain kya hum unki un umeedon ko pura kar payenge. Haan shayad tab jab hamari khud ki abhilashayen puri hogi tab aur agar na ho payi to kabhi kisi ko kuchh nahi denge chahe kuchh bhi ho jaye hota hai na aksar aisa hi??? Chalo ji chhodo hume kisi se kya lena hum khush hain to kisi ki khushi se hume kya. Har waqt kuchh pane ki chah hume kuchh dene se rok deti hai. Aksar hum sochte hain agar hume pyaar nahi mil paya to hum kisi aur ko kyu de aur agar mil jaye to fir hume aur kisi se kya hamare paas to hai na. Kya pyaar kisi ek insaan se hi kiya jata hai.............................shayad sab kahenge haan........Par main nahi manta is baat ko pyaar to har us insaan se kiyaja sakta hai jo aapke bare mein sochta hai, jise aap par sabse jyada vishwaas hai, jisko aapse kayi umeeden hai par na jane sirf insaan ke liye hum har rishte ko apne se alag karne se bhi nahi katrate. Kyu bhul jate hain un rishton ko jinhone bachpan se hume sambhala hai?Kyu bhul jate hain hum un insaano ko jinhone humari har galati ko maaf kiya? Kyu bhulna chahte hain har us insaan ko jo hume pyaar karta hai? ...............Bas ek insaan ke liye jise hum sabse jyada pyaar karte hain, wo hi sab kuchh hai hamare liye. Kyu karte hain hum aisa apne saath?....... main janta hu ke ek din aata hai jab yahi galatiyaan hume sabse jyada rulati hain aur us din koi nahi hota hume sun-ne wala, aur na hi koi puchhta hai ke kya huya hai. Us din hume is baat ka ehsaas hota hai humne kya khoya hai aur kya paya hai. Lekin us waqt tak jo hum kho dete hain wo shayad fir kabhi nahi mil pata...............Friends waqt sab kuchh dikhata hai, wo bhi samne aata hai jo hum kisi ke saath karte hain aur sochte hain ke jo kiya tha sahi tha par jab samne aata hai to pata chalata hai ke kitne galat the hum par us waqt kisi ko ilzam bhi to nahi de sakte, kyuki kiya bhi to humne hi tha. Kyu hota hai aisa jo insaan apni har galati ke liye kisi aur par ilzam lgata raha ek din jab khud aayine ke samne khada hota hai to khud se nazarein bhi nahi mila pata, tab kisi ko ilzam nahi de pata, kyu ??????????? Shayad iska jawab hi hume us din milta hai jis din hum bahut kuchh kho chuke hote hain.

Arey yaar it’s 3:00 a.m. Aaj ke liye itna hi aur waise bhi aaj se to mera new year resolution start huya hai aur agar aaj hi use bhul jayunga to bas fir to ho gaya kaam.

Take Care Friends Sameer’ll be back.